i know i already posted today but well that was a lil play so today life sucked as usual. im grounded for 6 months and im not suppose to be on but oh well i dont really care what they say. we already made it clear that we hate eachoter meaning my mom, stepdad and i. thay really need to learn to listen. my mom still hasnt taken me to the doc for my leg when its been hurting since last years spring break ahe just doesnt care. i wish she did i mean its just not fair ... lifes not fair... for me at least but o well i deal. i just need to find someone who apreciates me for me though the only one ive found so far are ny sis and a couple of friends but even they only know so much they really dont know how much i have to suffer some think they have it bad but they really dont and they should appreciate what they have no matter how little it is even i appreciate the house i live in even though i wouldnt be livin here if it werent for the law. i apreciate the food i have even though i bought it. it just gets on my nerves when peeps insist on more i mean they should think more of what they have than what they dont. i havent really gotten much chance to really sit and blog so now that i do i can really let it out and to tell the truthbehind my fake act i put on for peeps. if i show weakness then they will know they got to me and will have won and im not willing to let that happen so im letting my emotions out through blogging. i cant tell if i feel good about it or no but at least it gets out of my system and i can pretty much talk about it even though there is thankfully no conversation on it cuz i dont like actually havin a converstion on my reality. at school things are alright it sucks that Cole got a new boyfriend. een thogh he lives in missouri i still love him and miss him but i dont do long distance wellgotta go